As an actor, rejection is my occasional companion. It is no fun, it never gets easier, but if I am to pursue my craft, I need to be ready for it. Sometimes, it is devastating…missing out on a part that I really want is like a kick in the gut…maybe I’m not the actor I think I am, maybe I’m not good enough, maybe they didn’t like me…rejection can engender potentially crippling self-doubts. Then there are those times that rejection seems more like a message…I didn’t really want to do this show, something better is coming my way, just auditioning was good enough. But what I really want to know is what is it in me that intentionally puts me into the path of almost certain rejection…wouldn’t I be smarter to aim for goals that are easier to reach and less painful for my psyche?
Excuse me while I go prepare for my next audition…what is wrong with me?